Sunday, June 13, 2004 @ 10:56 PM :D
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this stupid blog thingy, i wonder if i can turn back time to blog it at another date, it's kinda annoying...anyways...
Introduction
well, let's just say that i am just an idiot who isn't very expressive in anything i do, be it concern i have for people.u know, this blog i create for the sake of making a blog, just to remember what i have thought of.perhaps people may understand me more by reading my blogs.Well, to start with as my first blog, i seriously feel that i should introduce myself, be it some kind of accident that someone just stumble into my site and happen to read my humble embarassing stuff.Well here it is:
Name:Webster Daniel Michael
Age:15
D.O.B:12/20/88 19:15 hours
Zodiac sign:Sagittarius
fav colour:blue
Loves:stuff toys, my computer, and a good career in sight
screw u all who think stuff toys are "gay" for guys, u just dunno how to enjoy, those "manly" influence totally do not make u cute>.<
Well,i really do feel that my blogs are really gonna becomes novels, as i have them in sight to be lengthy, although i might cut them very short due to privacy and laziness.
ARRRRRRR SOME VIRUS ATTACKED MY COMP, NOW I HAVE TO REWRITE>.<
well here goes, i am hated by the school so called, why, i have yet to find the answer.people are just influenced, a fren told me, about a book"bullshit makes the world go round" about influence making up the socialising stuff in the world.In my views, it really is bullshit.why?let's say there's this popular guy in the masses saying"i love soccer". everyone who wants to join his group will say "i love soccer" also.it's the way things are, people boot-lick or suk up to others so that they can join large groups and become so called popular and have many "frens".frens like these, like my mum says which i agree to a total extent, are one-come-ten-go, meaning that these frens will not help u when ur in serious trouble,in actual fact, they are models as fren, not what many people seek, but what they truely seek might be true friendship.
ON THE OTHER HAND, TRUE FRIENDSHIP IS WORTH ANYTHING.i mean this, and seriously feel blessed to have it.People influenced to have those kind of frens mentioned above are so called brainwashed.From the way they act, they do not have opinions of their own anymore, if not, they keep it to themselves.C'mon, the world won't advance like this...
Well, if u ask me why i wrote the above,then it would be a no brainer question, like DUH!!
well, time to move on...
MY LIFE
I was borned in Singapore, am a Singaporean, with both parents being Singaporeans too,in spite of me having such an odd name.
well, before i continue, i hope u will not discriminate me further with the next infomation i am gonna include specially, cause i feel that i should not be embarassed about it.
ok here goes,i lived in Simei until i was 4, when my parents got divorced.Yep, who would have guessed that i come from a broken family.about the divorce, my dad had apparently cheated on my mother and thus the decision.My mum won the custody of me, and we together moved to my in-laws house.In that house then, there was my grandpa in law, grandma in law, uncle in law, aunt in law.In kindergarden, i once got kicked by some kid who did not like my name,causing me to vomit.On to primary school, i feel blessed as i made many true friends there, and we still contact each other through msn.
well before i talk more, i shall explain about my grandparents.my grandpa, probably the person i was closest to, even closer to him than my mum or anyone else.He helped me with everything,well, i was small so u know what he did for me.Also, he was so close to me that he was the one who brought me out most of the time, including to school everyday and so on.unfortunately, he passed away when i was in sec 1, during may, just when the exams was around the corner.It was that day,he started choking blood, but i went to school.I remember calling at 10am in school during recess back home to ask, but apparently he had left the world already.I felt my world shrink to the size of an atom, and i sank into a world of darkness.I was so sad about what has happened to him, and also the fact that i wasn't around when he departed.I blamed myself for this.i fell into oblivion that day and went home only to find myself unable to cry due to a pain inhurled into the very depth of my soul.
My grandma, came into the picture after my grandpa left.She became the next closest person to me and took care of me, taking the place of my grandpa.well, seriously i think i prefered my grandpa, but i still love them both equally.unfortunately, my grandma passed away when i was in sec 3, that is last year.She has been sick for a long time, but at that time, she had gone into the terminal stage of cancer.We were elated when we saw her healthier during chinese new year, but she relapsed soon enough and passed away.I remember the tense situation late at night around 1am, we all waited by her side.I went to sleep, and my mother woke me up all of a sudden.She told me,"Ah ma isn't going to make it already, say goodbye to her".At that time, i said omg in my heart.I heard a sort of heavy breathing, the sort u would get if u had a super hard glue covering almost totally of ur windpipe.wheeze wheeze, i felt the pain and drowning feeling once again like i did with my grandpa.soon after, she stopped breathing.My uncle said she still had a pulse, but it soon faded.It was all over.
Now however,my aunt takes the place of both grandpa and grandma,however, it happens only on saturdays which she brings me out and pamper me.i guess at this point u are wondering why i am not very close with my mum, well, i seriously cant stand her nagging, and she scolds me for no reason at times.
And that's the sort of life i lead......not to add me being mentally tortured in school, my life is pure pain and agony.
sadly,this is not a chunk of words to gain sympathy, but more of something for people WHO BOTHER TO READ.....
well, Daniel OUT!
