Sunday, October 03, 2004 @ 1:31 AM :D
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The past weeks had been a nightmare, with something not nice to hear everyday, i doubt i can handle it anymore.these not nice things ranged from people to results, and the most disgusting thing was eng!26/50, thank you very much, i rock!...T-T...and of all, they have to take the oral marks which i screwed so bad.And not an A1 for any of the sciences, i feel like a failure.And worst of all, bio...c5, what the???Become what sai doctor, cant even qualifty to be hospital cleaner ah...ppl here and there, L1R5 10 and less, complaining.It's really like, what the...when i think i got a 15.I go crap school la.I thinking, if jingyuan really go to NYJC, then i would glady follow him there.Mrs wong the other day in the AVA theaterete, said that going to a good JC had no meaning, if everyone do so well without studying and u struggle to catch on...demoralising,surely.But what to do, with my kind of current standards, i will be lucky if i can even go to a JC.Dragon year, dumb competition would be even worse, with a lower percentage intake of students compared to other years.And with my IC number, it can be said that my birth year has about 50-60k children.That's really an omg.
And what am i doing?Wasting my time in front of computer, thinking mindlessly on useless things that shouldn't be bothered about.Wasting time worrying for someone about having that girlfren of his while a friend tell me i worry too much.She's just always so unthoughtful towards me, though i try to befriend her, but she's just him him him, and heck care his friend(yoohoo,over here, i'm saying me,of course-.-).Thinking about the end of year coming, with leaving of school, seperation of friends which will definitely hurt more than what tunku abdul rahman and lee kuan yew felt, the 'o' levels drawing nearer as i type, the endless suffering within me even if nothing has happened.The heart dampens with each sadness which adds to the tearing moisture.Never have i cried on a bus, and i told only one person, he shud know.Conference room, the place i cried and where ly was desperately trying to console me by saying that i still have one battle left to fight, that is the o level, and it's not over yet...
BUT I DUN BELIEVE!IT'S ALL A LIE!PEOPLE JUST WANNA COVER UP FOR THEIR LOSS BY SAYING "O" LEVELS IS A SECOND CHANCE TO DO WELL.BUT NO ONE HAS CONSIDERED THE FACT THAT IT WOULD BE COMPETING WITH PEOPLE WHO ARE MORE READY AS WELL.THE ONES WHO SCREW UP GO DOWN, THE ONES WHO DUN SCREW UP GO ON.WHAT ON EARTH IS THIS!U LOSE UR GOD DAMNED 2 POINTS OF "LOYALTY" POINTS IF U DO NOT ENTER A JC FIRST!!!
cry cry cry, thing for girls?i dont think so.I hate it, but i feel like it.the thing flows more readily like a waterfall's water falling due to gravity, with nothing that can be done to stop it.Not that i actually doing that now, but it happened, in the conference room.Mrs wong even asked me if i was alright, so paiseh just say that i was...
I'll be damned!
dig me down to where u are beyond the distant hell, i wish upon tonight, that u be damned, going down u shall stupid Daniel, u are the most useless thing on earth(chorus of "to where u are" by josh groban, sry to insult ur song)
The immense strength of love, which i seek only not to be obtained, the dampening feeling of being lousy, inferior L1R5 and friends around me,Am i competing against myself for that someone?i don't feel that i belong anymore.I feel like travelling to 27 nov this year NOW, and blast every frustration down the drain, like a freeman i never was, but i wont be able to do it, for a certain someone is missing.
MOVIE RECOMMENDATION!!!!!!
................BROTHERHOOD! DAMN NICE SHOW, WATCH IT, CALL ME OUTDATED, ANYTHING, BUT IT'S NICEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
