didn't really sleep last nite..might not have the money to go for classes anymore soon..

life's..really sad..heh..

-Daniel-

-A1 - One More Try-
Could be your eyes,
Could be your smile,
Could be the way you freed my mind
Your precious touch caressed my soul,
You gave me everything I need,
And now Im lost,
Lost forever,

Lost forever,
And you said this is going nowhere, girl
And you said I turned my back on,
You said Im not the only one for you

Chorus
Please give it one more try for the sake of our love
Lets give it one more chance cause I cant give you up
I cant live one more day without you in my arms
I could never find another like you

Could be the lies,
Could be my pride
Could be the days and nights so wild
Could be the times I wasnt there
And all the nights we didnt share
And now youre lost,
Lost forever

Lost forever
And you said this is going nowhere, girl
And you said I turned my back on
You said Im not the only one for you

Repeat chorus

I cant sleep, I cant live without you by my side
So cold, so lost without you as my guide
You made me realise Im nothing,
Nothing without you

It hurts more to not know about something, rather than be jealous by seeing it urself. I guess you perhaps do go out with guys, but it's your life now..I guess..

you rejected blatantly help i offered for schoolwork..guess you'd rather ask some other guy..like u always did..=)..

I dreamt you came back, but woke up finding u were gone

Rather pissing offffffffffffff...some chua choon hong call me by instruction of someoene o.O...so ingenuine..heh..

Who are you now
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you

And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that

No matter how I fight it, can't deny it
Just can't let you go

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Now look at me
Instead of moving on, not refuse to see
That I keep coming back
yeah, I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last

I've tried to fight it, can't deny it
You don't even know that

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

No, No...
I wish I could find you
Just like you found me, that I
Would never let you go

(need you, care about you)
Though everything's been said and done, yeah
I still feel you (I still feel you)
like I'm right beside you (Like I'm right here beside you)

But still no word from you

-Daniel-

I miss you..and you know who u are=(..schnappi..

Today I went for music class..Kinda late..And what happened? Only me and joel came..OMG..

Had Lynn teaching us and found out she actually took lessons in NY last time for 200USD for 1.5hrs. oh goodness

And I felt her lesson today did make an impact.

After her class, continued singing and realised even more mistakes. The fear for my own voice came with..NASAL VOICE! when i go high, my nasal voice becomes too obvious. And it's rather..Sharp sounding. Now i know why i felt my singing's rather sharp, other than my singing tone. Another thing was, i sang using the wrong place. And finally, someting i cant believe i actually diagnosed..I actually had problems breathing out so i couldnt breathe in back proficiently.

HAd singing like kbox session with jiajia and gwen. Did many songs in between and before them. Spent a lot of time in music school today trying to find out as many problems i had as possible.

And before my lesson, to my surprise, peter called me over. Lols. And then keely and javin were inside learning from him. Then he asked them, how they know me. LolX..

Anyway told peter about roughly wad happened at the birthday celebration and opening ceremony of music story, by fang zhong hua..including the splashing of champagne on his face..and kbox boss's visit.

Too bad didnt have time to talk to keely and javin. They left after their class heard they got exams. Sian..

Anyway when i saw javin, i dont know whether i wanted to smile or put a sad face. Smile, he may think i happy he got out or something.

hai..

What a day..

-Daniel-

一路上有你
词:谢明训曲:片山圭司演唱:张学友
你知道吗爱你并不容易
还需要很多勇气
是天意吧好多话说不出去
就是怕你负担不起

你相信吗这一生遇见你
是上辈子我欠你
是天意吧让我爱上你
才又让你离我而去

也许轮回里早已注定
今生就该我还给你
一颗心在风雨里
飘来飘去都是为你

一路上有你苦一点也愿意
就算是为了分离与我相遇
一路上有你痛一点也愿意
就算这辈子注定要和你分离
就算是只能在梦里拥抱你

-I dont mind you, but you mind yourself- =(

Woah..I just put my own fudge on my own ice cream..the feeling is great!..but the aftermath on throat not good feeling..diao.

argh.So boring at home.stone-ing rocks. Maybe I should relive the stone age- -"

Someone's telling me about phones...and yesterday i found out that the phone i eyed just came out. But na..i cant buy it. getting the keyboard as well as some other stuff out prioritise getting a new phone. Man..

I am still broke..Stupid ATM card waiting to be made, IC waiting to be collected.

I wan to perform !! argghhh!!=/

-Daniel-

Just presented finish my presentation..was pretty surprised of my confidence level. Maybe singing in front of people does help even that. I guess.

I got my jacket back. Dun feel like washing it for some reason.

It's been how long...since barsolina..

reading what was in the bag, I feel empty. like my other half's left the world. Can you feel the love...tonight..? nope..i can't.

In solitude or not, I must write my own singing legacy. I have to continue what I started, do or die. I hope I wont fall along the way anymore.

I think my last pillar of strength is my singing. If it collapses, don't know what will happen to me. Sadness is beautiful, loneliness is tragic.

I want light in my life again. Where has my lighthouse gone..

searching..wondering..hoping..

living on a prayer,
hanging by a rope,
nothing but a failure,
I still wont give up hope.

My only promise, is i will do my best..

-Daniel-

Today had to do some shit project thing to present on wednesday. So sucks. Went to meet some friends over at ps, they make me go back to bishan..sian..then after some arcading went to outram park, for fang zhong hua anthony's bdae and music story opening celebrations.

I machiam only one who went there from music clinic, super super left out. Then got once Fang zhong hua grabbed me for a photoshoot.

They had champagne popping and i popped out of the place and ran to meet sam at city hall to go amk to meet brad,hong and david.

Oh and Fang zhong hua actually popped the champagne cap or maybe just the wine into his face. His eyes got red. oh dear.

Really very sway day..haiz..when i got home, saw CSS2. Feel super sad and cried when i saw Javin go out. Though i knew him for hours only, i felt a fondness for him and really felt sad and disappointed for him. JJ went out too..double sway, cause i kinda know both of them.

And finally, a very last event made me crash down to earth with what i call, a shot to the heart. Sorry peeps, i'm really out of commission. Shouted too hard for red rain concert, shot too hard where it hurts most. I await my heart's revival, if it will ever come. Until then, it'll be hard to sing.

Oh and Jessie! have a safe trip and come back in one piece!

I need a long sleep. So i will dehydrate and all the sadness would just evaporate from my very being.Perhaps not waking up would be better still.

-Daniel- not falling into darkness, but being engulfed by it. And I thought for once, i would have light to shine into my little world, of dreams, and a simple life.

Ok yesterday RedRain was cool. Lead guitarist was crazy especially. Jumped like mad and it was really hot. Regret wearing a long sleeve shirt there man.

Had lunch at J8 with sam,the cold chicken rice, just before going over to paya lebar. Had multiple games with andy on the PSP and we played Bleach.

After some suntec outing with the zone, went home on the train. Got home to found out that I really gotta F-ing finish my presentation and present it on 12:40pm this wednesday and I have not started at all. Not to mention this week is only week 3 when the presentation was said to be on week 4. Slap those damned assessors la. It's really rather last minute as I only found out about the presentation being on wednesday on friday, last week. How the heck can they do this to us! ROAR!

Anyway..I foresee more costs. How the heck do I buy something overseas. Argh, gonna cost a bomb. But I dont think I want to miss out on this particular product. Not to mention I have not bought my keyboard. If I buy both, i'd really overspend and be close to broke. =(

Life nowadays really so money necessary. The thing I want to buy is not a want, but to me it's a necessity. I hope I can get it and it would help me.

AND I STILL WANT MY KBOX EXPOSURE. SO LOOOONG never go=(..

Maybe I should really go try being a model and see if I can obtain some money for funding. Afterall that's partly one of my co-ambitions..

But no lobang!!

- -"

-Daniel-

Woah...today bad day in the morning man! sTarted out having running nose and my aunt's joss-sticks just made it worse. Oh man. Started sneezing. Wore a little bit differently today as compared to usual. Bubbly~ look=/

Went over to music clinic, allan called me when i was at bishan lols. He take cab sia..zai..But end up i reach earlier..surprising.

Well..the lessons changed from Peter lao shi to Lynn today and we just had her on tues! for make up. And today 3 people never come for class.Not sure why, but anyways the lesson was extra productive as more time is given to us=D. And we did some touchy exercises=/ hey it's "diaphragm class" eh=/.

Breathe breathe breathe! 1232343454321 <-- the notes to learn lolx. Kinda simple with some practice=). as well as other lines, but lazy to list. Have to practice!!

Lynn made us sing an jing again.diao. and i sang elva's key -4. I can reach, quite easily, but..MY AIR NOT ENOUGH!! MUST TRAIN!Allan did -5 which is a key lower, was kinda envious of his deeper voice than mine, cause my voice's a bit jian(sharp). I think.

After class, chatted around with mei wei~( ok i write the "~" is cause the wei is the first sound, not fourth). Then also talked around with allan and i saw TERI! from campus superstar. Didnt know she takes lessons at the music clinic!

And to my surprise, I saw Zi jie, Javin and also Keely!( I didn't know Keely's name till i got home to check it up=X..sorry) Hanged around with them quite a while and felt they are good singers =). and my a while was really like..a couple of hours XD. They're really nice to be with.

Then ordered mac, mei wei~ did it, for peter, me and herself. She forget upsize for me=(..anyway I am broke. Then i actually sat in to watch, hear and comment a bit la, on how they sing..though i am not very good haha. They actually sang zhou jie lun and david tao, as well as XIN DONG!<--second song i learnt during my singing lessons.

They even asked me to join in to sing the "yi lu xiang bei". Super pai seh.and stress. Cause i'm singing with junior stars=/ haha. Zijie and keely got nice personality, and Javin got nice voice to me la. =)

It was really my pleasure to interact personally with these great people. strive on and do your best for the competition!

Which reminds me, Cindy, peter's manager, peaked into the room and gave me the "woah" look haha=/

And i got my Peter lao shi's album SIGNED at LAST!! Yay!!=) I finally found the CD inside my laptop disc tray-.- didnt know it's there. The most obvious place is always forgotten=/. And cause of this "cannot find the disc", i always never bring the album to let him sign, when I actually bought it on the first day it was released-.-"

Gotta train more! I cant give singing up! Just like what Peter wrote on the disc, " Specially for :Daniel, Thanks for your support! Keep on singing ya! Best wishes, Peter".

I will definitely strive for the best in this walk of training and interest. To me, I can almost consider singing a part of my life already. Not the kind u walk around and hum some tunes out. But those kind, where u really want to perform to the best of your ability and never stop striving to improve and be the next generation of amazing vocalists like zhang xue you, jacky cheung.

Love All who encouraged me, wont be a "loser" in singing! cAuse I will work HArd!

=)

Thanks all who have encouraged me, told me i have a nice vocal tone, Encouraged me, believed in me and most importantly, supported me ( ya lor someone hor, machiam dun support me de ( her name is je***eeee=/) haha=/ oops=X

Jia you to me! the best i can say to myself haha=X

-Daniel-

Think the honey's been hiding the fact that i got NASAL INFECTION!!ARRR!!!

hai..stupid postnasal drip, or dripping of phlegm from the nose to the throat..no wonder my voice has never been ok. DanG!

Such disappointing times nowadays..cant even reach so many songs..

Life's stagnating for some reason...........

-Daniel-

hai someone scold me on the phone twice and then i purposely hang up, the person still don't know I not happy le. well..at least i hang up if not i might have shouted back sooner or later. Feel like being pushovered..nvm nvm...

Anyway..school really sucked. Go to the dumb company do stupid discussion..Then super sleepy in school..

and OH MY GOD, TING HAI is one damned hard song to deliver. My goodness..i dun think i can really reach it..argh..hai..maybe i will try again when my throat is better..

Bad throat again..

-Daniel- Unhappy

Today's a great day=))..

Had Lynn, a new teacher teaching the diaphragm class today..Really helped a lot!..Will practice breathing de! And make sure my air goes to the right place! Funny la, ho,e,a lolx. Anyway sang An Jing again. So pathetic must sing using Elva's concert version. Wonder where has my disc with Jay's version gone to. Anyway, I found out today that the fear I always had, is fearing my very own voice. Fear is one bad emotion, but what promotes it to the worst it can be is fearing YOURSELF. hai..

I hope i can overcome this fear. I want to do what people can, and that is to perform. I know I am more than capable of it. Perhaps I need more trust and belief in myself. Trying really hard to xun zao(find).Hope it comes to me soon.

Anyway my voice is coming back..somewhat but still far from totally. Bought another BIG bottle of Pi Pa Kao=/

Really cool. I found out by asking Peter about my apprehensiveness towards the fear of my own voice, that he actually feared his own voice in the past! He told me to learn to love your own voice. I kinda think that's hard, but actually, slowly but surely, I am trying to appreciate it and am starting to do so. I realised many times I hear a disgusting quality of my own voice, is when i dun hold the mic close enough to my mouth. Shall try and take note of the multiple things I learnt, over the "almost a year" into this learning of singing thing. I am really glad i'm in this. I am starting to feel that i am going to realise my potential. And Lynn said I dun sound weird at all. Really comforting!..Perhaps I shud believe everyone who told me so far. Brad,Samuel, my ex ex, wendy, anthony fang zhong hua, irvine, peter lao shi, and a certain someone,let's do the song together one day.Maybe can even perform it=)..

As well as everyone who has believed in me, I thank you, I love you and I will not give up this dream of being that someone I wanna be. And i'll look forward to the day I give out concert tickets..=D..

<3

-Daniel-

P.S. Dreaming, aspiring and hoping to be, cause i dare to dream.

Oh man...my blog seems to be written on a weekly basis, that's bad...argh...

ok..today had music class...Allan is like UBER black la...go overseas suntan until like that. Haha, then Mark and him keep arguing about Ma pi and Ah-lan=/.

Then mei wei she so poor thing kana scolded by someone. Ok la dun sad! The table is just fine for you^-^.

LoL...sway sia...after vocal scaling I was first to do vocal range testing cause my phone number is the smallest number- -" 8163XXXX.

wa sian just nice during scaling and vocal range testing, my throat suddenly a lot of phlegm. Low notes dun want to come out.hai anyway it's for personal knowing only la, so it's not like some recorded down information about me that will stick with me or something. I KNOW I CAN REACH MUCH HIGHER THAN THAT. Just wait till my voice is clearer=(.

Allan like so funny la, sing "do" ask "doooouuuuuUUU". haha, today's class was quite funny.

Hmm..Anyway, I still have yet to get used to using headvoice. Used it before, but cant really use it well=(

Oh and we made Peter lao shi shout out a "la" on the second octave! o.O SOLID MAN XD, the whole sound proof room "shoke".

someone's away to malaysia and going jap..hope she'll be fine and be back soon. misses..

Jessie!Come back soooooonnnnnnn!! slippers slippers=/they really look quite jialat..i very nice hor u promise dun suan me and the ice cream=D and dun hit me with the slippers or something...i wu gu zhe..

Hai...i still miss Liyang and Yang kuan..

Nicky!!hope u're doing well in bris! Kelvin too! Cant wait for you to be back in music clinic class!=B

Theo ar..jia you at AVA...at least got things to learn seh...not like meeeeee T___T...ok la i got learn some stuff but i thought it's kinda dumb=/...

Ming Yue, mai sad...I'm sure things will get better, somehow or another=)...I am still ur guai sun......eh....I AM OLDER THAN YOU-__-...where's my ego boosters gone to!?=/..hai...i need my voice, not ego boosters=/

Something in music class impacted me today! I hope I will remember it and let it serve as a motivation! Shall not write here and be selfish wahaha=/..oops..ok it's just some mental challenge thing, nothing much ;)

Which reminds me...the shit at your door thing..I still haven cleared it up..i guess i let it spread too much now i have even more problems. Hai..I hope i find the answers soon, or i pick up and believe in myself. which reminds me,you cant deliver a song till u believe in yourself first. What an important line.Hai.

I still dream to open that concert...with me hosting,singing, dancing, playing an instrument maybe the piano or guitar. And songs done in English, Chinese and Japanese. If only I could pick up and believe in myself and do what i really wanna do. I really hope to be able to accomplish these. Stood on the stage of the new HoG..the view over the perhaps thousand seats. Made me tremble in thought when I tried to imagine the audience in full strength, with me being the artist performing on stage. The idea, the thought of it, the glimpse of it, I hope it'll be reality one day. When I really can do something to show what I really love to do.

I need my damned keyboard...

-Daniel-

my blog always rots=/

wahaha..

eh...think i nearly got another throat infection AGAIN..and now seems like my nose is stuffy and clogged up almost everyday...cant go high notes anymore T.T

ARGH!!!

man..sometimes i wonder why some people who really cant do things, just want to do things cause it's like..."trend" then go follow...then do things super kns still dare to lecture me...walao..pang sai sia..

stupid la...cant stand morons like that...wonder where that fat ego comes from man..perhaps from gals he likes to..talk to i guess..-.-

GOOD LUCK IMPROVING..i dun see any improvement yet i guess..but well, i seriously dun like people who do things out of fame or trend and not passion..zz..just trying to mock and disgrace my own passion in a very indirect way..

NEW SHAMPOO!!lols, the smell lasts on my head for more than 12 hours and i can still smell it o.O

cool~

I just want to be able to do what i want...Nothing is more torturing than a really bad throat, or bad place or loss of voice..I'd probably just die..=(

I'll place all my money in it just to make my throat at the best condition and consistently..

I miss many ppl...still...

liyang, yang kuan...someone here and there..jessie,bradford..samuel tan, and so much more..

oh no stomach ache again!

must be diarrhoea T.T...this kinda feeling..

i'll blog again soon. Friday marked the end of my attachment, monday marks the start of my FYP term AND YAY!!! GOOD OL SCHOOL FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fuck friday man, that bitch supervisor made me tear and so on...ccb...still dare to say she gave me "not low marks".

knnccb..go fark off and die...to think i made extra notes and cards for you..go to hell man..still dare to say " i dun wan to affect your future so much"

yea right like fucking hell you would.

Just screw off, faint and die on the road being run over by a bulldozer that the driver is so stupid that he couldnt even see you.I'd paint u black to match the road for this operation to succeed cause not only have u made me lost my respect for you for doing so much and giving me so little marks, the worst part is that you graded me based on ur own fucked up perception and things. E.g. attitude- willingness to learn. You think i fucking wanna learn from you when u dun seem to be really sure about your own damn things? I ask the other fucking chemists, not you. Go ask them if i really did ask them.

The main point is, the other chemist actually disagrees with your damned grading. And i interact the LEAST with you, fucking dumbass. How can u fucking grade me when u dun even ask the other chemist's opinions? Are you just some ccb, do you know how fucking heavy the grades weigh?

Sigh..If i not willing to learn, would i have written a 1.5page report on just how to use a machine? Giving me a 3/5 for knowledge are you saying i am fucking stupid? I know a lot more than you and i do things less kan jiong and more composed than you. Give me 3/5 for quality, are you saying the results i produce are not accurate and they should be retested personally by urself to see if it's accurate? I DUN SEE YOU DOING THAT. just go hell will ya...giving me 18/30, when the other chemist actually would have given me 28/30 he said. I admit, doing work for you is totally fruitless cause ur VERY UNSUCCULENT BOOBS ARE JUST SO SAGGY THAT U SHUD JUST CHOP THE HELL OUT OF THEM AND GO AND DIE.

You are my number one most unrespected chemist IN THE WHOLE COMPANY. I am complaining about the marks and gonna get my lecturer to talk to the other chemist.

-Daniel-

*Daniel Webster*

To advance further musically,vocally
To be able to touch people's hearts through music
A good acoustic guitar
A good lead guitar and amp
Be someone of invisibly huge stature
To be as rich as possible
The means to be able to do whatever I want ;)
To be a person who imparts skills and wisdom to others
To be a giver to the needy

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